That moment when you go to bed and you start thinking about all those things that hunted you around but you didn't have time to think during the day because you were to busy. But then it comes the moment of truth, when you face reality during those minutes and sometimes hours, thinking about shitty stuff about your life. Funny thing is that you mostly don't think how things are fine and stuff. No, you have to think about the shitty stuff. The dark stuff. And it sucks. It's like you don't realized how shitty everything is until you have time to stop and think about your life. And I always think that THAT moment is when you are about to sleep. I think maybe that's the reason most of people cry themselves to sleep.
The reason I've been thinking about this lately is because a lot of things have crushed in, and most of them are really not something good. And when the night comes I just want to go to bed and sleep and forget everything. But at that time all comes back to my mind and I just can't sleep. I've been taking some sleeping pills that help me sleep. But they take their time to take in. And that time is the worst. That's why lately I've been watching TV and leaving it on sleep mode. I watch TV until I don't remember at what time I felt asleep. And then I have a new day to start and to go to college. But I don't know how much that would help to keep me sane. I know I'll have to face all this stuff at one point. But for now, I'll put my TV on sleep mode and watch some TV and not worry about a thing. Because all I want it rest.
